“Coffee to go & feeling kicked in the chest by the passage of time. Thinking of my youngest child, my solstice baby, turning two on the longest night of the year; realizing that he’s officially a toddler now, not a baby, & I will never have any more babies.”

Child That Was You

They took the child you once were before you were even born. They robbed her with their laws and their stares and their whistles, kicked her down and she could never dream, no, not even in my arms as I waited for the other you, the dead you, to come back for her.

Short StoryFleurDecember 12, 2019fleur, short story, creative writing, fiction, womanhood, women, girls, girlhood, society, wild womxn, wildernessComment

the fairy tale of fecundity

“35 is claimed to be the age in which there is a steep drop off in fertility and as a result people are encouraged to get pregnant sooner rather than later. a frequently cited statistic is that less than 30% of people aged 35-39 have a chance of conceiving. “Rarely mentioned is the source of the data: French birth records from 1670 to 1830”.”

Herstory, MotherhoodMarina ManoukianSeptember 3, 2019fertility, medical sexism, womanhood, motherhood, biologyComment

In (St) Brigid’s Arms: an Imbolc Devotional

“When you unexpectedly find yourself in hospital with a poorly newborn (and still recovering from a c-section yourself) 35 miles from home, missing your husband and other children, frightened for the baby you’ve just brought into the world, then magic, prayer and ritual have never been more important, but also must be improvised.”