Once in a far away jungle land, there was a fierce and loving Goddess named Isine. Her beauty, inside and out, was unmatched and admired by all who knew her. As a child, surrounded by friends and family, she decided to take a journey when she was of age. She yearned to explore the world away from all that she knew. Her soul was calling her to all ends of ancient Earth. Her best friend, a tiger named Raa, accompanied her through her journey. They traveled while the Sun was present and curled up when the Moon glowed; In dark caves near a fire, behind a waterfall on hot summer nights, in the rainforest, next to oceans, and all across desert sands. While Goddess had her partner in journeying, Raa, she at times felt alone. A craving for a human touch or a deeper soul connection. But not just any human touch. A healing human touch.
One day Goddess found herself wandering into familiar territory. She recognized the trees, the flowers that bloomed along the path she walked, the fireflies and the smell of myrrh. She realized she was home, but she did not see anyone that she knew from childhood. Instead she walked the path that led to the Oracle’s home, made of straw and glowing pink with candlelight. Warm and smelling sweet, she was invited in by a shimmering dust that drew her. Raa purred of anxiousness and curiosity, but remained guard outside of the home, keeping one eye on Goddess.
“You have found your way home,” spoke a small black cat sitting in the middle of the room. Trinkets everywhere, incense smoke swirling in the small room. A slow burn of time happened in this place. The cat paused to let these words settle in with Goddess as she looked around in awe of her surroundings. It felt like home, but she had never seen this place before. When Goddess was about to speak, Cat interrupted.
“You have traveled far and wide. We have watched you, and we welcome you back, dear Goddess. You have picked up wisdom and gifts along the way, experienced much blossoming and heartache. You are home now. You are not alone, you have never been alone. You have important gifts and messages to share with the world. You are here as a light-worker to shift perception and make important change. You already know this in your heart, and that is why it is swelling with what I have shared with you. I made this bed for you as I’ve been waiting for you. In the morning, we will talk some more. You need your rest for the next step in your journey.”
Goddess took in these words, speechless, yet knowing. She looked over and saw a beautiful bed dressed in lavender and deep dark purple in the corner of the room, surrounded by pink rose petals. All she could say was “thank you” to Cat, as she was so sleepy from her sojourn and stunned from the awakening message she just received. Pillows stuffed with lavender, they lulled Goddess to sleep. Cat invited Raa to sleep at the foot of Goddesses bed for further protection.
That night, Goddess had dreams of flowers blooming, stars aligning, all of the glorious wonders of nature coming together. She saw herself surrounded by humans and animals, all creatures of Earth, all peaceful and sublime in disposition. The sky was glowing pink and purple hues, the stars shining brighter than usual even with the sunset. Dusk was a healing space. When the Moon rose, the women circled for ritual. They held each other’s hands and each spoke soft prayers and stories to one another. Ending circle with affirmation and hugs, they slowly faded as Goddesses eyes fluttered open with the Sun’s rays shining through a window next to her bed that she had not seen the night before. Raa impatiently watched her, as he had been up far earlier than she, awaiting her departure from the slumber world.
Cat was sitting next to her, watching her sleep. She smiled and sat up to greet Cat and Raa and share her dream. As soon as she moved, Cat swiped her paw across Goddess’ cheek. With a quick yelp, Cat ran away before Goddess could react. Goddess Isine felt sharp pain and wetness, but there was no mirror around to see how bad it was. She touched her cheek to feel a small, wet open gash. She saw blood on her hand, but not too much. Goddess quickly got out of bed and calmed Raa, who wanted to chase after Cat, but knew better to wait for Goddess’ reaction before deciding what to do. Raa was surprised at his own self-control considering the situation.
“Stay here, Raa.” Goddess rushed out of the humble temple to see where Cat could have gone. Cat had vanished. Raa reluctantly lay on the bed where Goddess slept. Goddess followed her urge to continue back into the forest, but not the way she came. Through trees and bushes she came out of the other side to find a small oasis. The water was so crisp and clear she could see her reflection pristinely. The gash was in the shape of a crescent moon. She gasped, but calmly scooped water from the pool and brought it to her face. Salt water. It stung as it cleansed. She closed her eyes and took a deep breathe. The air smelled of roses, lavender, chamomile, and vanilla. She still was unsure of what had just happened, why Cat would have been violent toward her, what she might have done to illicit such violence… The questions plagued her for a moment, but the trees swaying beside her told her not to worry. That all was according to plan. That Cat was not angry. Cat had purpose, just like she.
After hours of meditation, Goddess returned to the humble temple. Raa ran to her and nestled her legs with affection. Cat remained absent. Peaceful and exhausted, Goddess returned to the lavender bed for sleep. Raa felt her anxiety and stayed near to comfort her. This night, Goddess did not dream. She slept so deeply that all she saw in her mind was darkness. She slept for 3 days and 3 nights as Raa oversaw her safety and health. Worried but calm, the trees spoke to him as well, telling him that she is safe, unharmed, and transitioning, like the caterpillar does before evolving into a butterfly.
On the second night, Cat returned to see Goddess. Cat was not surprised to see Goddess sleeping and it was affirmed that the plan was working. She walked into the temple. Raa saw her and while instinct made him want to lunge at Cat, he remained peaceful.
“What brings you back?” Raa hummed sternly.
“I must bless Goddess on her journey.” Cat replied frankly.
“Have you not done enough? Your paw to her face clearly is the reason she is in this slumber.”
“Ah, yes, but for the good of all. You see, Goddess is a messenger. A light worker. She must visit the darkness to be revealed in light. Her talents and purpose transcend time, space, and the physical hindrance of human form. My purpose was to provide her with the ability to transcend those gifts so her purpose could reach beyond what you and I can grasp. You will see.”
Cat walked to the top of the bed to peer at Goddess silently. With a bowed head, Cat sent strength and prayers to Goddess, that she would continue to journey peacefully, in all realms, dimensions, and places on Earth. After prayer, Cat jumped down from the bed and bowed to Raa, who bowed in return, leaving best wishes behind.
On the 4th day, Goddess awoke. Raa ran to her side. She immediately sat up and touched her cheek. She had healed quickly but there was now the scar of a crescent moon on her left cheek. Goddess did not despair over this physical mark. It was a mark of her journey. She felt different inside, but was unsure of what had changed. She knew there were great things on the horizon, and she knew she must not sit still any longer.
“Raa, come on. We’re leaving.” She stormed out of the temple with passion and purpose. Raa swiftly followed. After storming ahead, she turned to say goodbye to her temporary home. When she turned, however, the temple was gone to golden dust.
Raa and Goddess traveled through multiple lands of all kinds, once again, a sojourn. It was not always easy or beautiful or pleasant. At times they risked death, but reached villages and neighborhoods and tribes where Goddess felt she was sent to heal. Her healing was not physical, but through words. She carried messages for people’s lives. Glitter from her lips to their ears. She was the jungle disco queen. A rockstar of her time. But she never saw this light within her. She didn’t understand her power. In turn she began to lose her glow. She did not know that she had to also be healing herself.
One day Goddess felt too exhausted to go on. Raa carried her to a small oasis. She realized this was the same oasis from months ago. Cat ran through her mind. Goddess had not thought of Cat in quite some time, as she had been so distracted. She faintly touched her cheek. Raa lay her down at the oasis to give her some water. It was a warm summer evening. Fireflies and birds shone and sang into the night. Goddess soon fell into a slumber.
No matter where Goddess traveled, no matter what she did for others, Goddess felt alone at her very core. In her dreams she found fellow women goddesses to share her time with. It took some time for Goddess to understand how whole she was on her own, that others were not needed, but cherished in their own time. Goddess recognized that she didn’t need to be alone per se, but that she would do well in more company. Goddess dreamt of those who would truly accept her for who and what she was.
When Goddess awoke, she felt small. She looked at herself but she did not look the same. She ran to the oasis but found that she was running on four legs and much faster than she was used to. So much so that she tripped on the way to the mirror of water. She was already so much closer to the ground. She looked at herself and in shock and awe she saw a reflection she had never seen. She woke up as feline, fur of shimmering gold. A Goddess in another form, she quickly turned to Raa. Fast asleep, Raa’s body heavily sighed with every breath.
She ran to him on all four paws, leapt onto him, “Raa, wake up! Wake up!”
He was startled by her approach but his eyes widened further when he saw her tiny body with gold fur.
“...Goddess? Is that you?”
“Raa, I can hear words from you!” She laughed heartily with surprise and excitement. She ran back to the oasis to view herself once more, but this time stepped further into the water, when she turned back into human form.
This time, when she returned to human form, she wore a long gown of glitter and gold.
Goddess looked at her hands and knelt down to tap the water once more. She suddenly turned back into the cat she woke up to be. She laughed at her newly developed magic. A gift, or a curse? She wondered. A new sense of responsibility. Fresh air brought to her lungs in her temporary nose. She wondered if being a cat sometimes would help her feel less alone. She could at the least connect with Raa in a whole new way.
To be continued...